Tag Archive: who am I?


The past few nights I have woken up early; precisely 2:45am…the witching hour.

Ok, so the witching hour is typically thought of as midnight and when bad things happen…

the term witching hour refers to the time of day when supernatural creatures such as witches, demons, and ghosts are thought to appear and to be at their most powerful and black magic to be most effective.   -Wikipedia

But I do think God works in all things and at all hours.  So when I woke again this morning at 2:45am; the time of day when “supernatural beings are most powerful,” I figured God must have something to say.  So I got up.

I have been lost in a fog for many months now, questioning God and His plan for me as a wife, as a mother, my weight, my job, my writing…oh you name it, I’ve questioned.  And if you read my post from yesterday, pridefully titled What’s the point?, you might have noticed that I am expecting an answer.

In Job chapter 38 and 39, God is done allowing Job and his friends to answer for Him.  He’s done with Job’s questions and with Eliphaz, Bildad, Zophar and Elihu’s assumptions.  In one return question God finally gives Job (as well as this prideful mother of four) what he has been longing for…

An answer.

“Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? …”   Job 38:4

God is the One in control.  Over all things…

The sea

“who enclosed the sea with doors… And I placed boundaries on it And set a bolt and doors… And here shall your proud waves stop’?   Job 38:8, 10-11

The morning

“Have you ever in your life commanded the morning, And caused the dawn to know its place,”   Job 38:12

The stars

“Can you bind the chains of the Pleiades, Or loose the cords of Orion?”   Job 38:31

The rain

“Who has cleft a channel for the flood, Or a way for the thunderbolt, Has the rain a father? Or who has begotten the drops of dew?”   Job 38:25, 28

The animals

“Can you hunt the prey for the lion, Or satisfy the appetite of the young lions”   Job 38:39

“Do you know the time the mountain goats give birth?… Is it by your understanding that the hawk soars…”   Job 39:1, 26

And in Job’s response I see myself…

“Behold, I am insignificant; what can I reply to You? I lay my hand on my mouth. Once I have spoken, and I will not answer; Even twice, and I will add nothing more.”   Job 40:4-5

 

God woke me because He wanted to ask me something.

Who Am I? to think I deserve an answer… better yet, Who Am I? to question God.

 

 

One day when a co-worker returned from going out for lunch, she made a beeline straight to me and with a huge grin on her face said:

“I just saw a license plate that I knew you’d like. I didn’t get it at first, and I know you’ll get it right away, but once I figured it out I knew you’d like it.”

Gees… no pressure!!  I wasn’t really sure where she was going with this.  What could it have said?!!  AND… what if I couldn’t figure it out?  Oh boy…

I held my breath and said a quick prayer pleading God to give me discernment so I would understand.  Here’s what the license plate read:

 

Now, I diligently pray for God to use me mightily where I work and often I think I’m not really making a difference, but through this one small and perfectly placed license plate God showed me clearly that people are watching.

They know that God takes priority in my life and obviously that I know and love Jesus Christ.

They notice and question why I listen to the Christian radio station or why I read my Bible during lunch.  They come to me when they are going through something tough in life and want encouragement or prayers.

They notice what conversations I choose to take part in and what type of words escape my lips.  I don’t have to beat them over the head with my Bible or mention the name of Jesus in every conversation or even, every day.

They know where I stand, what my beliefs are and who I love.

“You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.”    Matthew 5:13-16

What do people see when they look at you?
What do people hear when you speak?
What do you spend time doing or thinking about in your spare time?

“so that you will prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you appear as lights in the world”   Philippians 2:15

Who are you when no one else is looking?

Related posts/articles:
Baby Talk   (https://ispygod.net/)
Do People Know You’re a Christian?   (http://radiantchurch.org/blog)

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