I just got off the phone with Proverbs 31 Ministries.  It seems due to an oversight and change in my hotel reservation; the original balance $986 changed to $1172, and there was still a balance due of $186 for my She Speaks conference registration.

But I praise the One who orchestrates every detail, and is the only One who thankfully, has His finger on the pulse of things!!  I noticed as funds came in that God provided $136 extra.  Of course I thought it strange at the time, but now I see that He provided those additional funds because He knew I would need them.

Praise Him!!

Because the final payment was due today, I ended up paying $50 out of my own pocket which was a bummer because I had hoped God would provide every penny…but I am more than willing to donate to my own cause!!  But, I am now an official She Speaks registered attendee!!  Woo-hoo!!

Although I did not expect the reaction I had after speaking with the velvety-sweet-southern-drawled-gentle-voiced gal from P31 Ministries, when she closed with:

“See you in July!”

I couldn’t say anything, for once in my life I was speechless.  I just started to sob.

I knew my God could provide the money I needed.  I just didn’t think He would.

“for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.”   Matthew 6:8b

I know He owns the cattle on a thousand hills.  I just didn’t think He’d part with any.

“For every beast of the forest is mine, the cattle on a thousand hills.”   Psalm 50:10

I know He wants to give us the desires of our hearts; in line with His plan.  I just didn’t think mine was worthy.

“Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”   Psalm 37:4

I know He wants us to experience unbelievable and unfathomable joy.  I just didn’t think He could offer so much.

“These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.”   John 15:11

I didn’t expect it.

I should have, I suppose, because I truly felt God calling me to take this step, but in the back of my mind I was continually thinking… plotting what I would say when this didn’t pan out.

…when this proved it wasn’t God’s plan after all, and I would have to figure out what God’s real plan was for me.

The shocking thing is, it’s looking like it may be…

But, why me?

Who would want to hear what I have to say?  I am not interesting.  I haven’t done anything amazing.  I certainly don’t speak well, hence the writer’s track, and most definitely don’t have anything interesting to say.

But…

I long to share God with anyone willing to listen.

I long to reveal His goodness, faithfulness, playfulness, protection, and unbelievable love…

I want people to see God the way I see Him; clearly and in truth, in absolute wonder and awe at how He is involved in every detail of every day.

To show them that He is always in control, not us, and had I only waited for Him to work…

The final balance, as you know, was due today, and God did provide every penny.  He brought two unexpected visitors to my home, money in hand, that wanted to help with the conference.  PRAISE HIM!!  The money I paid has now been returned.  God’s plan was to provide every penny, and He did!!

“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!”   Psalm 27:14

Oh God you can have my pencil, you already have my heart.  Make my words yours, and reveal yourself in new ways to those who read my silly little rantings.

Please continue to be my muse.

“For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.”   Matthew 10:20