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“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”   Jeremiah 29:11-13 (niv)

I often hear people ask and wonder so often myself;
“What is God’s plan for me?  What does He want me to do?  What will bring Him the most glory?”

Ever since I returned from the She Speaks writers conference, I have been struggling with the direction I feel God has for me.  I have an unsettledness inside me to continue writing, but see no real path.  I long to glorify God through whatever it is I do, and if writing isn’t where God wants me, I want to know…I don’t want to waste mine and His time if this isn’t the path He wants me on!

I was talking with a friend about this and God spoke to me through her when she said;

“I think we get stuck because we want to do the right thing, but end up doing nothing because we don’t want to do the wrong thing.  Just remember how MUCH God loves you and that His desire for others to be ministered through the gifts He gave you, is greater then your desire to use them.”

So what do we do, how do we know what path to take?

Stop.

It’s time to have a talk with God.
Let Him know what you’re struggling with and ask Him for direction.

“I call upon you, for you will answer me, O God; incline your ear to me; hear my words.”   Psalm 17:6

“Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God; and whatever we ask we receive from him, because we keep his commandments and do what pleases him.”   1 John 3:21-22

Listen.

Stop with the noise!
God speaks quietly.  In fact, many times it’s a longing or desire He places within us.
So, what moves you?  What are you passionate about?  What is it you think you want to do?

“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.”   Psalm 37:4-6

Take a deep breath.

Stop doubting!
God has a plan for us and even had it planned long before we were born!  As long as we stay in His will, He will not fail to show us what that plan is.

“For I, the LORD your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, ‘Fear not, I am the one who helps you.'”   Isaiah 41:13

Take a step.

God responds to faith…and sometimes He waits for us to take that first step before He acts.
Move in the direction you think is right.
Trust that He will lead you and know that if it is not the right path He will change your direction.

“I know your works. Behold, I have set before you an open door, which no one is able to shut. I know that you have but little power, and yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.”   Revelation 3:8

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”   Proverbs 3:5-6

 

“Faith is taking the first step even when you can’t see the whole staircase.”
-Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

I wake up every morning at 4:00am.  I used to wake up at 5:00 to pray and workout, but when I started to leave the house to work out, I lost prayer time to driving time, so I decided I needed to get up earlier.  Thankfully God made me a morning person…granted, I would love to sleep in, but once I’m up and out of that sinfully warm and comfy just-a-few-more-minutes-Ma bed, I’m good.

This morning, God revealed a hard truth to me.

Since I’ve focused more on my writing recently, I have noticed my prayer and study time shifting to writing time.  I have not spent real quality time talking to God or studying His Word for a while.  For so long I have wanted to write.  It truly has been my dream since I was little, and since giving my life to my Lord and Savior, He has given me a burden to share His sweet truths and awesome stories with those who don’t see Him the way I do.  I would love to have that opportunity, or a job that allows me to do that; an opportunity where I can search Scripture, or pray, or talk about Jesus whenever I want.

But what I realized this morning is that I already do!

I can spend time everyday talking with Him.

But, do I?

I can spend time everyday learning from Him.

But, do I?

Every day I can tell other people about Him.

But, do I?

It is a commitment.
It is a discipline.
It is a choice.

Is Jesus truly Lord of my life?  Do I live for Him?  Do I sacrifice my comfort for Him or have I been allowing the evil one to convince me that writing stories, looking up Bible verses, and talking to him when I need help or an answer is good enough?

I don’t pray the way I used to…and yes, I am in constant conversation with God throughout the day, but do I truly listen?  Am I interested in what He has to say, or do I just let Him have it and hope He will help me out?

Why do I long to write so badly?  Is it truly for God or notoriety?  For whom do I really want to bring glory to?  Am I His and His alone, completely?

“And as [Jesus] was setting out on his journey, a man ran up and knelt before him and asked him,

‘Good Teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?’

‘You know the commandments: Do not murder, Do not commit adultery, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Do not defraud, Honor your father and mother.’

‘Teacher, all these I have kept from my youth.’

‘You lack one thing: go, sell all that you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me.’

Disheartened by the saying, he went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions.”   Mark 10:17,19-21

Am I willing to sacrifice my dream, the desire of my heart, the one thing I have always wanted…to follow Jesus and His plan for my life?

“…’Abraham!…Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love… and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.’

When they came to the place of which God had told him, Abraham built the altar there and laid the wood in order and bound Isaac his son and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood.  Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son.”   Genesis 22:1-2, 9-10

God asked me this morning; are you willing, like Abraham, to lay down your most prized possession, the thing that defines you, the thing that you hold closest to your heart …to follow My plan for you?

In the movie Facing the Giants, Grant Taylor, a high school football coach with a mediocre record, creates a new coaching philosophy and decides to praise God after each game, no matter what the result.  It’s a wonderful underdog story revealing God’s faithfulness.

One story line in the movie covers Grant’s wife Brooke’s infertility, and there is one scene where Grant asks Brook a poignant question:

“If the Lord never gives us children, will you still love Him?”

She gives a very honest answer when she doesn’t respond.  Later in the movie she responds in a prayer, after hearing news that she again is not pregnant, by saying:

“I will still love You, Lord.  I will still love You!”

That is a defining moment to me.  That is the kind of walk I want with my Lord, one where I am willing to give anything to follow Him.  I don’t want people to see me through my writing, I want them to see Christ.  I want them to see how amazing my God, my Jesus, my Savior, is and how wonderful it is to follow Him, and if laying down my heart, my dream, my writing, brings Him the most glory…I gladly lay it down.

“The critical question for our generation – and for every generation – is this:

 If you could have heaven, with no sickness, and with all the friends you ever had on earth,
and all the food you ever liked, and all the leisure activities you ever enjoyed,
and all the natural beauties you ever saw, all the physical pleasures you ever tasted,
and no human conflict or any natural disasters, could you be satisfied with heaven,
if Christ were not there?

– John Piper, God Is the Gospel: Meditations on God’s Love as the Gift of Himself

Could you??

I just got off the phone with Proverbs 31 Ministries.  It seems due to an oversight and change in my hotel reservation; the original balance $986 changed to $1172, and there was still a balance due of $186 for my She Speaks conference registration.

But I praise the One who orchestrates every detail, and is the only One who thankfully, has His finger on the pulse of things!!  I noticed as funds came in that God provided $136 extra.  Of course I thought it strange at the time, but now I see that He provided those additional funds because He knew I would need them.

Praise Him!!

Because the final payment was due today, I ended up paying $50 out of my own pocket which was a bummer because I had hoped God would provide every penny…but I am more than willing to donate to my own cause!!  But, I am now an official She Speaks registered attendee!!  Woo-hoo!!

Although I did not expect the reaction I had after speaking with the velvety-sweet-southern-drawled-gentle-voiced gal from P31 Ministries, when she closed with:

“See you in July!”

I couldn’t say anything, for once in my life I was speechless.  I just started to sob.

I knew my God could provide the money I needed.  I just didn’t think He would.

“for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.”   Matthew 6:8b

I know He owns the cattle on a thousand hills.  I just didn’t think He’d part with any.

“For every beast of the forest is mine, the cattle on a thousand hills.”   Psalm 50:10

I know He wants to give us the desires of our hearts; in line with His plan.  I just didn’t think mine was worthy.

“Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”   Psalm 37:4

I know He wants us to experience unbelievable and unfathomable joy.  I just didn’t think He could offer so much.

“These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.”   John 15:11

I didn’t expect it.

I should have, I suppose, because I truly felt God calling me to take this step, but in the back of my mind I was continually thinking… plotting what I would say when this didn’t pan out.

…when this proved it wasn’t God’s plan after all, and I would have to figure out what God’s real plan was for me.

The shocking thing is, it’s looking like it may be…

But, why me?

Who would want to hear what I have to say?  I am not interesting.  I haven’t done anything amazing.  I certainly don’t speak well, hence the writer’s track, and most definitely don’t have anything interesting to say.

But…

I long to share God with anyone willing to listen.

I long to reveal His goodness, faithfulness, playfulness, protection, and unbelievable love…

I want people to see God the way I see Him; clearly and in truth, in absolute wonder and awe at how He is involved in every detail of every day.

To show them that He is always in control, not us, and had I only waited for Him to work…

The final balance, as you know, was due today, and God did provide every penny.  He brought two unexpected visitors to my home, money in hand, that wanted to help with the conference.  PRAISE HIM!!  The money I paid has now been returned.  God’s plan was to provide every penny, and He did!!

“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!”   Psalm 27:14

Oh God you can have my pencil, you already have my heart.  Make my words yours, and reveal yourself in new ways to those who read my silly little rantings.

Please continue to be my muse.

“For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.”   Matthew 10:20

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