Category: Weight Loss

What is your god?


Whoa. God doesn’t waste time, does he? Not even a chapter from where I have been reading, He hits me…#Philippians3

Is your god your appetite?!


Absolutely it is.

My biggest struggle is self-control; food, finances, temper…oh the list goes on. But temptation with food is the worst.

I have been really trying to be strong in my food choices by avoiding my food triggers: sugar, bread, pasta…but oh how the evil one tempts, and yesterday was HUGE in my arsenal of decisions to disobey.

Confession time:
On my way home from work I decided to give into my craving for a donut. I stopped quickly at the convenience store and literally walked into my accountability partner. I immediately knew it was God providing my “way of escape.” (1 Corinthians 10:13) #sworddrill #ispygod

But did I take it? No. I waited until she left to buy what I knew she would call me out on. #gluttonyisasin

Oh Lord, please help my focus not be on food but on You!

The Lawgiver Urges Obedience

“Moses stresses that, while he has been the spokesman through whom the laws have been delivered, it is God alone who has determined the laws and legislated the nation’s statutes.  Moses reminds the people of the law’s twofold purpose: to bring them into a proper relationship with God, and to regulate their conduct toward orderly and beneficial living.  He is mindful of the need to promulgate the law in future generations and therefore entrusts the parents with the responsibility for teaching the laws to their children. 

Because many of the Israelites are too young to remember, Moses reminds the people that God’s covenant is as much with them as with their parents.”

Read Deuteronomy 4:44-49, Deuteronomy 5:1-5a and 5:22-33 and Deuteronomy chapters 6, 7, 8

All quotations taken from The Daily Bible.

I forgot to post our training the last couple weeks.  Week 4 was a good jump in running from 3 to 5 minutes, but we got ‘er done…

Week 4: Day 1, 2 & 3:
5 minute warm up
3 minute jog/90 second walk
5 minute jog/2 minute 30 second walk
3 minute jog/90 second walk
5 minute jog/2 minute 30 second walk
5 minute cool down

Week 5, however… much more challenging:  Well, for some…

Syd Week 5 – Day 2

Week 5 – Day 1:
5 minute warm up
5 minute jog/3 minute walk (repeat 3 times)
5 minute cool down

Week 5 – Day 2:
5 minute warm up
8 minute jog
5 minute walk
8 minute jog
5 minute cool down

With week 5 being a bit more running, I wondered how Syd would do.  We both struggled a bit at times over the past several weeks, and day 3 of week 5 was a 20 minute run.  20 minutes in a row!!  I just wasn’t sure how either of us would do it.

I always do my runs in the early morning when no one else is up and although I got through the 20 minute run, I did ok the first 15 was the last 5 where I struggled, it was not easy.  But I tell you, a little 10 year old girl was my inspiration to hoof it out…to keep going…to not give up.

After all, how could I expect her to run the whole thing if I didn’t?!!  So yes…it is Sydney who is my inspiration to push through.

When it was time for Syd to do her run that afternoon, I made sure to turn on her favorite show, and I ran in place next to her while she ran so she wouldn’t feel so alone.

She did AMAZING!!  She didn’t even look like she was struggling!!

Syd killed the 20 minutes
My face as she was running…



Week 5 – Day 3:
5 minute warm up
20 minute jog
5 minute cool down







She is so going to kick my butt.

My eating was much better this past week (AND WEEKEND which I have found is my biggest challenge; staying true to eating well.)

Not thrilled with the numbers on the scale, but they’re better than they have been.  So, results starting with week 6:

Weighing in at 176.6   YAY!!  But inches wise, not a huge difference since week 1 {sniffle, sniffle… I know, that’s my own fault.}  At least there’s a little change.  🙂

Day 1 – Day 35

With this being Thanksgiving week…I am going to try to NOT gain weight.  We’ll see if I can stay away from the yummies at our Thanksgiving celebration and instead focus on what I am thankful for, not what I’m missing.

Hang in there…we’re in this together!!!  🙂  Just keep running!!

“I have observed something else under the sun. The fastest runner doesn’t always win the race, and the strongest warrior doesn’t always win the battle. The wise sometimes go hungry, and the skillful are not necessarily wealthy. And those who are educated don’t always lead successful lives. It is all decided by chance, by being in the right place at the right time.”   Ecclesiastes 9:11 (NLT)

I’m sure you’re on pins and needles wondering how my weight loss journey has been going, seeing as how I didn’t post any results from week four…

Well, the reason I didn’t is because frankly, I’m embarrassed.

Halloween KILLED my diet and my will power.  (Have you read Return from the chocolate coma?!)  But Halloween was two weeks ago and I’m still using that age old “the devil made me do it” excuse.

“Then the Lord God said to the woman, ‘What is this you have done?’ The woman said, ‘The serpent deceived me, and I ate.'”   Genesis 3:12

It has NOTHING AT ALL to do with the fact that I ate all that candy two weeks ago and then this past week made chocolate chip cookies and practically ate all of them.  Or, being the great mommy I am, buying donuts for the kids for breakfast and eating four of them myself.  Yup it was all for them, I swear!!

Uff.  At 380 calories a pop, well…it doesn’t leave much else to eat if you’re counting calories.  Thankfully I had a salad for lunch…at McDonald’s… and finished up the kids’ french fries (well, you can’t leave food on your plate!!  My parents taught me that!  Plus, look at all the starving children…)

Mmm-hmmm, excuses, excuses.

Needless to say, I have gained a few pounds over these last couple weeks.  And so from day 1 to day 28, I have officially lost 10 pounds, and gained back 12, lost an additional few more and gained some of those back.  So since starting this journey, I am now sitting back at the original starting weight of 182.

BUGGER!!!  Although, thankfully because I am running, I can safely say that my pants are fitting a bit better.  Slightly….not a ton….well, some…ok, nevermind.  I much preferred how they felt 10 pounds ago.  😐

Syd and I have continued on the couch to 5k running plan…and just now I finished day 1 of week 5 (which, this is going to be a tough week…yikes!!)


But you know what I’ve found?  When I’m not regularly spending time in the Word or with God in prayer, everything else in my life tends to fall apart.  The way I treat my family, the way I spend money, the things I crave, the things I want to do, the things I eat.

When I am out of control, I have to check my God tank.  Is it empty or full?  Is it that I’m craving Him and the evil one is convincing me I can fill it with things of this world?

So it seems.

“Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”   Matthew 26:41


So this week, week three, has proven to be quite difficult.  I blame it entirely upon Halloween and those darn sweet treats!!

I am completely feeling the face of Orange M&M…

I have found that this low carb, high fat, diet thing is not working well for me.  As you know, I do love the bacon and cheese but what I also found is that I crave bacon and cheese.  Great for the diet, terrible for the waist line.  It seems that although you CAN eat bacon and cheese, it is not suggested that you ONLY eat bacon and cheese…hence the rise in numbers on the scale.

So sad I know.

And I won’t even mention the chocolate calling me from my high fat bacon and cheese stupor that may have something to do with the scale incline as well.  It seems Kit Kat and Reese’s Peanut Butter cups have a unique spell over me…

“Do not desire his delicacies, For it is deceptive food.”   Proverbs 23:3

So although I will continue down the low carb path; instead of high fat I will heighten protein, fruits and veggies.  That has never failed me in the past…so we’ll go back to the old stand by!!

I did continue with the week three training and did well on this week’s plan although now I’ve lost Syd somewhere in the candy dish so we need to dig her out and get her motivated…

The week’s not over yet!

On Monday, Syd came home and announced she wasn’t going to run because she was coming down with a cold.  Sort of a lame excuse, but I’ve been known to do that myself.  I figured she would run Tuesday.  No such luck with Triple Treat at church and then Wednesday was Halloween…

So when she got home today, I told her to get on the treadmill.  We have three days left of this week and three training days so we need to get boogy-ing, and she completely stalled.  She did not want to run and announced that she would start training again next week seeing as how she hasn’t started this week yet.

I knew I just needed to get her moving so I told her to get her shorts on.  She stomped up the stairs, slammed the door, changed, stomped back down the stairs and headed down to the treadmill.  I followed her and got her started.  After the warm up and the first set of running, she smiled at me and said “Sorry…”

I knew, all she needed to do was run, and she would feel better.

Week 3:  Day 1, 2 & 3:
5 minute warm up
90 second jog/90 second walk
3 minute jog/3 minute walk
90 second jog/90 second walk
3 minute jog/3 minute walk
5 minute cool down

Mission complete.

Isn’t it interesting how we can convince ourselves that the best things are not what we need but when we finally do make the right choice… we always feel better!!

“Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.”   Philippians 4:8

So it’s been one week…one VERY LONG week, without carbs.

As I told you in my other post: Diet change, I am going low carb which is what I do normally when I’m watching my weight, but this time I’m following a much more strict low carb diet plan called Keto or The Ketogenic Diet

I have struggled a bit but over the last week I have lost 9 (it was 10 but somehow I gained 1 last night.  Bugger.) pounds!!  SHOCK OF THE DECADE, I TELL YOU!!  But what I noticed the most was my belly…

Nope, no sucking in here (I seriously wanted to!!) you got it all hanging out, sorry!  But what a nice little change in one week, huh?!!

I also started a Couch to 5k running program with my daughter Syd, which shouldn’t have been too hard for me…I have remained active a couple times a week at least.  However, the problem I have quite literally run into is that I am EXHAUSTED and barely able to do the running each day.  The Keto plan warns you of the “Keto-flu” and apparently I’ve got it.

Whew.  Not sure how to get over this, but have heard it will go away when my body begins to make new enzymes that burn fat for fuel instead of carbs, so looking forward to that.  🙂

Syd did a great job last week and her legs hurt a bit after the first day but otherwise she looked and felt fine.  She has a beautiful running cadence and looks very comfortable while she runs, and as the week progressed she moved up from her 4.5mph to 5mph, which concerns me a bit because come race day she is going to KICK MY BUTT!!

She was eager to get going today, starting week 2 of training:

Week 2:  Day 1, 2 & 3:
5 minute warm up
Alternating 90 second jog/2 minute walk for 20 minutes
5 minute cool down

Although the 10 year old MACHINE struggled a bit today (it was nice that she was actually human and not enjoying running for a change), she did GREAT!!  It seemed the added 30 seconds of running hit her pretty hard.  She even said “can’t we go back??”

My sweet girl on the DREADmill!!

But she got done, a few tears were shed just like during her Mama’s run this morning…so we’ll see how this goes.  She said she still wants to do the race, and understands (I think) that 3 miles is actually going to take a while to run so I hope this training program helps.

I haven’t changed her diet much except trying to help her make good food choices when she’s hungry.  She is not on the low carb diet that I am trying but she’s more aware of what she’s placing in her body to fuel it and she even lost a pound since last week!!

So as for me, I do miss carbs and have found that EVERYTHING has carbs in it!!  Whoa.  Plus, I need to learn to not watch Cake Boss because that just makes me want frosting.  But I have found that there is one thing that makes me very happy on this diet and I can have lots of it, because how many carbs does it have??  ZERO!!!

The best food in the world.  The “meat candy.”  The bomb:

Mmm … bacon.

“Everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable.”   1 Corinthians 9:25


Related posts/articles:

Diet Change: no more carbs…

Everything About Keto   (
Low Carb Food List Blog   (
The Ketogenic Diet   (
Linda’s Low Carb Menus & Recipes   (

My daughter Sydney and I are now in training.  We are planning on running a 5k race in December called the Santa Hustle. When I register for a race, I am not ashamed to say that I am bribe motivated.  I choose the race and compete, typically, for what the finisher receives: a cute t-shirt or medal.

Cole’s medals…so far 🙂

I haven’t been extremely motivated recently until God worked through a few people to get my attention.

First a friend of mine, who I used to work out with about a year and a half ago, started really watching her food intake and lost a significant amount of weight (with no exercise)!!  It is very interesting how another person’s results can either motivate or discourage.  Lisa’s weight loss did both quite frankly.

You see, I’ve been exercising for several years now after losing a bunch of weight at the end of 2006, however after I checked the run-a-half-marathon box off my bucket list last October, I sort of…well, I sat down and am now experiencing the too-tight-wardrobe phenomenon because of it.

Second, I happened upon the Milwaukee Santa Hustle website and saw the sweet race shirts and gear they give out for the runners and knew I had to do it:

Running with a beard?  Oh I am IN, BABY!!

Third, another friend of mine told me that she is done being overweight, done being miserable and was starting the couch to 5k program in order to be ready for the Berbee Derby on Thanksgiving Day.  My sweet friend inspired me to stop feeling sorry for myself and get back out there.  I know I can do it and if she is motivated, I will get motivated.

Last, my daughter.  My second born daughter, Sydney, was very active as a little girl.  She loved running around, riding her bike, playing soccer and other sports and we found she was good at them.  I was thrilled that I would have another runner in the family when she got older, but what happened was I introduced her to my downfall, my addiction: CARBS.  She, like me, loves carbs, sweets and anything NOT healthy and also like me, she sat down.

I was a heavy 10, 11, 12+ year old who was quickly approaching obesity and now I see so much of myself in Syd.  She struggles fitting into her clothes, prefers to just sit around and is very self-conscious.  I get that, I know EXACTLY where she’s at and it’s a horrible place to be … especially when you’re facing those lovely middle school years and have an older sister who is tall, thin and beautiful.  Yup, I get it.

But I also know Syd; she is a leader, she does very well when a goal is set before her and can be quite headstrong and focused, so I showed her the Santa Hustle website.  She, like me, loved the idea and a new runner is born.

I meant to start training a couple weeks ago, but with birthdays and celebrations getting in the way… I know, nice excuse – cake and ice cream.  Syd and I have started (along with a new lo-carb eating plan – by the way, anyone know anything about the Keto diet?!!) the couch to 5k (Coolrunning C25K) running plan.

Measurements and “before” pictures have been taken…bacon has been purchased and we are on our way.

Syd did great her first day; she walked at a 3.5mph and ran at a 4.5mph!!

Week 1:  Day 1, 2 & 3:
5 minute warm up
Alternating 60 second jog/90 second walk for 20 minutes
5 minute cool down

We’ll see how she feels tomorrow and more importantly on Wednesday when her second run is scheduled!  🙂

Do any of you struggle with your weight or food?  Do you struggle with exercise or staying motivated?

I know there are women who feel the same way and I would love to hear from you!!

What has helped?  What do you struggle with?

What’s your excuse?!

“Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win.”   1 Corinthians 9:24

Please check out my other posts relating to my weight loss battles:
Lacking Motivation
My Motivation
Skinny Jeans
184. Now it’s personal.

I weighed myself this morning.

I don’t advise it.

The number on the scale is almost 30 pounds up from my lowest weight.  You see, about six years ago I used to weigh around 230 pounds and I worked hard, found my rhythm and lost the weight.  You can read about it in my post: My Motivation

But over the last year I changed my focus; trading in workout for writing and have now found myself at an impasse.

I am satisfied with my writing; I started a blog and went to a writer’s conference, but have been quite frustrated with the lack of guidance and leading I feel God should be providing.  I desperately long to write, but have found no doors opening.

And the more I focus on my passion for writing and not exercise, I have found myself soft, lazy and in the place I was before when I weighed 230 pounds…

miserable and questioning.

What is going on?
Why is this happening?
Is this the wrong path?

Jax and I teach the kids that we must work hard in this life.  Of course God can help make things easier at times; allowing a good grade on a test not studied for, or produce an outstanding crop not tilled well.  But those provisions are not the norm.

Because of the choices made so many years ago in a garden of perfection, we must now work to achieve a desired result.

“…cursed is the ground because of you; in pain you shall eat of it all the days of your life; thorns and thistles it shall bring forth for you; and you shall eat the plants of the field. By the sweat of your face you shall eat bread, till you return to the ground…”   Genesis 3:17-19

So why wouldn’t this apply to me?

I worked hard for five years learning how to treat myself; working my muscles and fueling my body, but what have I done with those tools?

I go eight months doing little more than walking the dog and when I get back into working out, I go like gang busters for one whole week, while filling my belly with s’mores, cheesecake, ice cream and birthday cake, then Monday morning rolls around and when I step on the scale I’m surprised by the jump in the numbers.

I feel God’s call on my life to write and He hands me an amazing opportunity to attend a writer’s conference, He gives me tools to build my ministry and write more effectively, but what have I done with those tools?

Sure, I’ve sent in a few articles here and there, I’ve guest posted on friends’ blogs while keeping my own up to date, but I have been playing it safe.  I haven’t done the work because I don’t want to hear the “thanks but no thanks” replies.  I don’t want to hear the “you’re not good enough.”

I don’t want to use the tools because I don’t want to fail.

But isn’t it failing if I’m not putting in the work required?


It’s time for me to pull up my big girl panties.  God did not place me on this earth to sit idly by.  We are called for a purpose, and we must do the work… walk the path, write the words, pick up the weights.

Oh Lord, you can make the crops grow, you can bring the sun to warm and the rain to feed, but if I don’t prepare the soil or if I don’t cultivate the produce, I won’t get a good crop.  Please give me the desire to make good choices, help me to do the work necessary to give you the most glory and to fulfill the plan you have for my life. 

“I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.”   Romans 12:1

“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”   Romans 12:2

As I put on my jeans today I noticed immediately that I grabbed the wrong pair.  You know that snug feeling as you’re pulling up that unyielding denim, knowing that there is no way it will go over the saddlebags looming above.


Then, glancing down at what must be my skinny jeans, I notice my not-so-skinny-jeans stuck helplessly, hopelessly, on my somehow suddenly-much-more-swollen-than-last-time legs.

Aaaack!  Talk about impending muffin top!!

It broke my heart.  I sat down and cried out (quite literally) “COME ON!”

I ripped off the unforgiving denim, gave in to pulling on some sweats and stomped out to mow the grass.

I was so angry.  I was mad that I haven’t been eating well and I was mad that I had stopped exercising.  Sure, I worked full time and didn’t have a lot of time to spare, so I replaced exercise with extended prayer to seek God’s will and plan for my writing.

But now I’m not working.  I have time.

Last night, I spied God leading me to a wonderful blog post by: runninggalinsights.  It reminded me of what I miss from my early morning runs…

“I run. It’s where God and I hang out.
On each run, I spend it listening to Him (not an Ipod). It’s quiet out there on the road, me and my shoes and the open air.
Welcome to my wandering thoughts collected from miles on the road. This blog seeks to explore anything that relates to a healthier Spirit, Mind, and Body.”

As I mowed and spent some much needed time in God’s creation;
warm sun rays engulfing me,
smell of cut grass filling the air,
birds flittering in playful circles nearby…
I began to reflect upon runninggal’s blog

What if one of the reasons I have been so unmotivated, so down, and so unsure, is because I have an adversary;

“Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.”   1 Peter 5:8

…an enemy who wants nothing more than for me to turn from things of God and focus on myself, my feelings, my sorrow.

“That’s ludicrous,” I thought and tried to wipe the thought from my head.  I’m the one that stopped running.  I’m the one that chose what I put in my mouth.  But as I turned it over in my mind, I couldn’t help but realize the partial truth to it.

I found great joy in my early morning runs with God.  Not necessarily the running part, but the God part.  I experienced nature in ways I never imagined, and unlike runninggal, I do listen to music…but I tend to cry and praise God while I run.  Which I actually don’t recommend, because it makes breathing much more difficult, can be quite hazardous while running with closed eyes and hands raised, and it is NOT pretty.  Hence my early-morning-shadow-seeking-before-light-breaks runs.

A lovely new blogger friend God placed in my life: lovebugsworld was struggling a few days ago and she blogged about God giving her what she calls a “God wink” in her post: Day 14 #photoadayMay…

“And in that pic there is a tiny yellow flower that caught my eye. That put a knowing smile on my face!! Just as I was composing this, I was thinking about the silver lining of it all….it’s okay to began again. We are blessed to see another day. It’s another chance to be all that we can be and continue to do exactly what we were placed here to do!!”

and today I spied God winking at me.

While I continued to push the whirring mower in fairly straight lines, as the sun beat down and I was thankful to turn the final corner, something in the grass not too far from me caught my eye.  A tiny yellow flower.  It literally took my breath away, and I knew God was smiling, just waiting patiently for me to notice.

In that lovely, bright yellow blossom; a radiant bloom in barren terrain, a beckoning signal against a faded backdrop, a fragile and tiny gift that might have been overlooked had I focused on myself or my adversary much longer.

“However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me–the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.”   Acts 20:24

But God reminds us to stay the course, do not get distracted or listen to lies the evil one whispers.  Trust His timing, His plan, and keep your focus, because He’s everywhere trying to catch your attention!!

Ok, so I did the bike yesterday and didn’t have time to post.  SORRY!!  It’s been a while since I’ve been on the bike and boy, was I sloooooooooooooow this morning.  WOW!!  😦

But I tell ya’, since doing Turbo Jam’s 20 Minute Workout & Ab Jam the other day, my arms, back, obliques and abs are screeeeaaming!!  We’re a bit saggy yet, but we’ll get there…

So again, since I lack a pool, this morning I did the Turbo Jam 20 Minute Workout with hand weights just to get a few upper body muscles moving (that so helps, by the way, to work through sore muscles) and then planning to get in some cardio later as well.

How’re you doing?


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