This is an "I Spy" story that I wrote in 2009.  It is an AMAZING story of God's provision...Enjoy!

Oh my word, I am overwhelmed. I sit here, tears flowing down my cheeks in total awe and amazement at our amazing, wonderful, powerful God. Oh Lord, I thank you for caring for me, even when I so don’t deserve it! You promise us in your Word that you will care for us…

“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.”    Matthew 10:29-31

What happened, you ask?

I was speaking with my Mom on the phone just not even half an hour ago, when the doorbell rang. Not just once, but over and over and over again…

ding dong.

Ding Dong.

DING DONG.

DING DONG!!!!

I hung up with my Mom and went to the door, which Tristan (my 3 year old) was already holding open, and what to my unbelieving eyes was there, but a porch load of groceries. I kid you not!! Like 20 bags!!! And, NO ONE else. Not a hint of a person. Not a trace. NO ONE!!

This is not my original picture, but is the only picture that sort of captures what we saw on our porch that morning.

Oh God, you are sooooo great!! Everything from frozen meats (including a honkin’ turkey!!), to snacks for the kids, to pantry items (like sugar, flour, ketchup, everything)!

I am just dumbfounded…because you would be SHOCKED if you were to know of our need for groceries right now. You just can’t even imagine how empty our shelves and fridge are. You have NO IDEA how God just provided for us — I ran out of vegetable oil, flour & sugar yesterday!

God provided today.

I have been concerned about sending a lunch to school tomorrow with Sam (my 9 year old, who has a field trip). We have NOTHING to put in a lunch…especially nothing special. All she would get was a pb&j sandwich. No chips, no snacks, no fruit, no treats….nothing.

God provided today.

I haven’t had any snacks for the kids for after school the past couple days…I even made some chocolate chip cookies yesterday as last resort (because I had the ingredients to make them…and there was just enough yesterday…but nothing more.)

God provided today.

We ran out of milk yesterday, and praise God we had some WIC checks to use so we could get more. But while I was at the grocery store, the devil was strongly tempting me to write a check (which would most definitely bounce) for something extra…telling me that we needed it. I even had some food in my hand to put into my cart…but I heard God’s still small voice telling me…”I will provide”.

God provided today.

Oh God, I am SOOOO overwhelmed. Thank you!!!

“Come, bless the Lord, all you servants of the Lord, who stand by night in the house of the Lord! Lift up your hands to the holy place and bless the Lord! May the Lord bless you from Zion, he who made heaven and earth!”  Psalm 134:1-3

Then to top it off, the very next day I received a note from a new friend and accountability partner at church this morning regarding the grocery blessing we received yesterday… I am so humbled!!

“Nicole,
I have witnessed something amazing today. I don’t even know how to explain what I have learned through you.

I was contacted tonight by the person who God sent your way to answer your prayers. I was asked to give you a message and it just really touched me. The person who God sent is someone who doesn’t go to Hillcrest but someone who has seen your “remarkable desire to service God and honor Him and give Him all the glory” and doesn’t even ‘know’ you.

Nicole you are an amazing person who shares with so many people and touch people’s lives with your openness to share God’s message. I definitely have a lot that I can learn from watching you…”

Oh I pray that those generous ones who God used so mightily yesterday will be blessed for following His leading to touch our lives. They truly were a blessing to our family, and what an incredible example for my kids of God’s amazing faithfulness…and very tangible working in our lives!!

Oh God, I can’t praise You enough!!! I am soooo unworthy.

After I read this note, I had another one from a good friend from my last church (who by the way, doesn’t know my friend mentioned above)…and you will never believe what she had to say:

Nicole,
I was contacted by the awesome servant who left groceries there for you and was to pass on some info…
They would like to remain unknown to you, they told me God would want it that way. But they told me to tell you a few things…These are their words copied and pasted so I didn’t mix anything up.

“I am the one who dropped off the groceries for Nicole and family. I do not belong to her church- actually I hardly “know” Nicole at all…
Please help Nicole see that this was not an act of someone from the church – but a distant friend. Please explain she was chosen because of her remarkable desire to serve God and to honor Him and give Him all the glory.”

So I wanted to let you know this! I have no idea who this person is or why they contacted me, but I wish I did know them!! This just shows what an amazing influence you have on people! You are such a great gift for me and obviously others!!!”

I can’t stop crying!! Oh Lord, I am so humbled…..

I just can’t even …

I am speechless.

It is so very scary to think of all the eyes that are on us – at all times! What are we doing with our lives? With our mouths? We can be a very real example to others – especially those who don’t know Christ – and we can either glorify God through our words and actions, or we can hurt our testimony and His name. Oh I am so humbled, and crazy thankful to the amazing God we serve. Whoa.

I truly feel like what it says in Isaiah 6 – “WOE IS ME!” I feel like Isaiah did, that I have truly been in the throne room of God, ME!! — I am such a wretch, and yet God wants to know me and wants to use me. Praise Him!! I only hope that I can please Him through my less than perfect actions. Wow.